Those in my circle would offer that as an assessment of my current photography skills… and humbly, I would agree.
Attracted to every aspect of photography… countless hours of snapping images, reading, studying other photographers and web searching have been invested. Haha — an abundance of trial and error indeed — if you only knew how I have pained over creating bokeh in my compositions!
Self- taught, and a decent photographer… I know that the information untapped is considerable. Still perplexed by aperture, still perfecting composition and working my camera in manual mode, the mission of becoming astute continues to be the goal.
The action plan has been implemented and it is time for that next step… one that is LONG overdue.
Actually, it should read as such: L. O. N. G. OVERDUE… for commencing tomorrow, yours truly is beginning studies as a student in the Washington School of Photography, Professional Photography Program.
Shhhhhh. Listen carefully… you can hear me shouting from the rooftops…“Oh freaking happy day!”
All things happen for a reason…. and the reason that this endeavor hasn’t happen sooner, will perhaps one day be revealed. I know for certain that timing is crucial; patience even more so. Especially since two years prior, I participated in conversations with the program registrar and opted out — knowing that a “right-fit” wasn’t right then.
Since that conversation, the signs indicating that I needed to move forward, have been everywhere. Even more so now…
How does one describe that feeling… the feeling of knowing that the moment is now right. Elated?! Yep… elated!
Big picture though… 29 days ago, my 45th birthday was celebrated.
For me, birthdays offer wonderful opportunities to be relished by loved ones, reflect on accomplishments and roadmap the way for new birthday wishes made.
Since turning 40 in the midst of an awful snowstorm… celebrating with friends and family in Paris on my 42nd birthday and shaving my head on my 43rd birthday, that day, 7 February, serves as momentum for newness.
More important, the wisdom that is gained with each passing birthday, I am truly compelled to share. Since I am constantly learning from others, my hope is that perhaps someone; mainly my two children and especially my daughter (who, even though she will not admit it, is always carefully watching her mother’s actions) can possibly gain something from my experiences.
Back to the big picture…
Tomorrow marks more that just the beginning of a photography program. It marks the notion that all things are possible and it is NEVER too late to pursue your aspirations!
Back in late December of 2014, serious preparations for this program officially went into play. All with the objective of pursuing a dream and entering another birthday with a next step of improvement secured — fulfilling a wish made.
In being transparent, the African proverb – It takes a village – is applicable to me. Without embarrassment I say that even at 45 years of age and working full-time outside of the home, the financial investment of family has enabled this opportunity to become reality. For that, I am eternally grateful… and deeply touched that they too share my dream and see my potential.
What used to embarrass me and cause me angst in conversation is no more. Never a untruth told… I just artfully evaded the question or skillfully used semantics in my favor when answering… but truth be told, I did not graduate from college. For a long list of reasons (some 23 years later, many of which now seem so frivolous) the years spent at The College of William and Mary did not yield a degree… instead, a wealth of knowledge, an unforgettable experience, a close circle of friends, a compassionate man who became my husband and a career in interior design. Haha — perhaps I did graduate, eh?!
Sans degree, I still know that knowledge is key and educating/investing in yourself is a nonnegotiable.
So… with the many hats that I wear, I am eager to add another and take my photography to the next level. When my children become adults and coherent to rhythms of adult life, I am hoping that my actions make them proud. I am hoping that they view me as a role model and see my appetite to improve myself as tenacious… and in their own life, they too follow suit.
This past Christmas, my husband gifted me with a phenomenal 50mm lens for my camera. His way of offering me a nudge in the direction of my goals. His words… “Kisha, you are about to blow up!” My interpretation of his words… in a true T.I fashion, “do it, do it, do it… whatcha waiting for? Big things poppin’!”
I’m on the move… and my appetite for photography is ravenous.
And… over this year-long program, I intend on quenching it and getting full!
Taking it one step further, my life as a stella & dot stylist and the company mission have definitely been a fantastic influence on my photography ventures… that mission: to give EVERY woman the means to style their own life.
Well here I go… here I go!
Ahem… what was that? Did you say you needed to hire me to take your picture? (wink. wink)